Wow, so it seems I’ve been really bad about keeping up with this blog. I wish I had an excuse but ultimately, there isn’t one. Truth is, I haven’t been up to much lately. Work here and there, and occasionally see friends. Sometimes I think I’m busier than I really am. I figured I would be better about writing while Brett was away but it’s become apparent that I am actually worse at keeping up with a blog when I have so much more time to do it.
Anyway, I’ve been thinking a lot about life. It’s amazing to think of the many different paths we can choose to take. How do we know what the right one is? How do we know what to do and what exactly in that moment is the best choice for ourselves? I guess we don’t. I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. Everything in our lives, God has placed there on purpose. There is no right or wrong way to live your life, but your life is a gift and you have to treat it like that.
I haven’t been very good at living my life, especially not lately. It seems as though I’ve gotten too caught up with what’s going on right now and how I want things to be later on. I have neglected to think about the good things in my life: the things that life is all about. I know I’m not the only one guilty of this. Sometimes we all forget to stop and “smell the roses”, so to speak. I haven’t been very good at appreciating the hand of cards that has been laid out before me. It’s my goal to learn to appreciate and show my appreciation more often. I’m lucky to have what I have and I don’t want to ever forget that. I want to have fun and live a great life; one full of love, happiness, and adventure. I’m excited to see what God has in store for me and my future. I’m happy with the way things are turning out.
The other night I was watching a movie. It wasn’t a very good one, but the moral of the movie really hit home for me. The main character was a famous singer battling addiction and depression. One of the last things she said before she past away was, “Don’t be afraid to fall in love, It’s the only thing that matters in life. Fall in love with as many things as possible.” For many people, love is what motivates us most and gets us through the hard times. I want to live a life like that. I want to be full of love, and love everyone and everything, and by that I of course mean in the purest way. If you don’t have love, honestly, you don’t have much. We all need to work on reminding those we care about how much they mean to us. We also need to give unconditional love. Choose love over all else because without it we are nothing.
If not for this guy right here, I would not know what it means to be in love. I think the reason that the stupid movie I watched meant so much to me was because sometimes I think that love is what drives him to be the amazing person that he is. Everything he does, he does out of love and with love. I wish so much that I could be like that. He has such a big heart and his head is in the right place. I am lucky to have someone as wonderful as Brett in my life. Sometimes I fail to remind him just how special he is and how much it means to me to have him by my side. Honey, if you’re reading this, I want you to know that you inspire me to be a better person. Never forget how great you are. I will never understand why of all the people on this planet you chose me, but I pray that never changes. I hope the love that we share and your feelings towards me never fade away and that we can continue living this Semper Fi kind of life together. I love you Brett, and I’ll see you again in eleven more days.